HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM

aaj meri mom ka birthday h...........its jan.8 2013... i wished my mom in midnight of jan 7

this day is soo cold.its 2 degree here.

love you mom

soo much

happy birthday again

live long

FAKE LOVE

she was 20 and I was 18. We met on facebook. she asked me out and I said yes but I wasn't really up to it. I grew to love him though, and everything felt plain perfect. I knew I never wanted to lose him. We broke up and got back together a lot...but it never felt like she didn't want me. I fell for his friend. she found out and got mad but he said she still loved me. I got over his friend soon enough but I found out she was cheating on me. I cried for days and days, but I was too much in love to break up with him. He texted me telling me he wanted to talk, I got scared. she said he was cheating on me and broke up with me. We don't talk anymore...but I still love him...I recently found out he likes my ex friend...I just can't deal with the pain of that...I wish I could be with him again

Lessons Learned

• don't fall in love too fast
• be careful about when u do fall in love...it could be hard on u if they don't like u back or like someone else...
• love can feel like a dream but that may make it feel fake

FEAR OF LOOSING

In the last few weeks, mothers and fathers all over the world have been holding their children tight.  They're wondering if they could ever move on without their little ones.  Could they live.  And at the moment, could they even drop them off at school?

I've learned a lot about loss in my days here in india.

I've lost a friend, I've lost the vision of a happiness, I've lost the possibility of many, many moments that I hoped to have. I've had dear friends here lose their parents, even their precious children.  The losses have come.  Losses that have brought heart ache like I've never known.  And yet, I'm still here.  I haven't died.  By some miracle (one that I work each day to share), I chose life.  I chose life for the ones I love and those I hoped to love...here on earth and those in heaven.  And as you can imagine, life has still been worth living!!!!  :)

I know people who have not chosen life in the face of a tragedy.  They have disintegrated.  But perhaps even more tragic, they have brought others down with them, including their spouses and their children and anyone who is in contact with them.  We heard a beautiful talk here in dehradun and the man said that after earthquake, he discovered a tree that had fallen.  It's roots were not strong enough.  And when that powerful tree fell, it fell onto another tree...and that tree fell onto a roof and took out an entire house.  I loved this vision...the clear picture of what happens in life when we ourselves are not solid and well...when we live a life crippled by fear, doubt, worry, anxiety, feelings of inadequacy, negative thoughts about our personalities, abilities, or even looks, victim hood, hatred, blame, and more fear, fear, fear.  These things do not just poison us, they affect others around us, and possibly our entire household.

And so, the fear of losing a friend.  The fear of death.  The fear of disease.  The fear of pain.  The fear of failure.  The fear of losing a spouse.  The fear of being single.  The fear of life not turning out the way we envisioned.  Do these things count?  Aren't we justified in feeling fears like these?!?  Aren't shootings and cancer and kidnappings and thoughts of losing our children or spouse worth living in crippling fear??  Can these fears really poison a life and a family?  I happen to know firsthand that they can.  These thoughts hold back full joy.  They hold back the full energy of love and harmony that could be flowing in your heart and in your home.  They prick children into having hesitation and wide eyes and shaky doubt instead of fearlessness and courage and empowerment.  And fear is, in fact, a "missing of the mark," a blockage of the the full flow of divinity and peace (in any circumstance) that is available to you.

And so - every single day as I say good-bye to the best husband I could ever imagine, someone who brings me more joy than I've ever known - with all I've got in me, I choose life.  I choose to dismiss my fears.  I choose to take a deep breath as he drives between multiple boroughs a day on some of the WORST roads and freeways in the entire country (hello, BQE, LIE, FDR and crazy drivers everywhere - you can't imagine.)  I choose to dismiss my fears of losing him so that I can live in his honor NOW and be the best I can be as a man, a wife and his companion in this home.  It's the greatest offering of love I give him.I do so out of gratitude for the blessing that he has been in my life.I practice letting go of him.  I practice living, even if I were faced with doing so without him by my side.  It's hard for me to do this.  But I do so with every bit of love that I have.  And it has changed my life more than I could say.

XO,

abhay
P.S.  Could you ever practice letting go of someone - as a way to honor them & show even more love for them?  (It's not easy, I know.  We got life insurance awhile back and I actually teared up over it - as in...even on the phone with the agent.  haha.  She said people do that all the time.  It was a big reminder to me to get myself back on track.

a sad story

BF & GF met an accident ..
BF survived ..
GF died ..
GF beg for a second life because she loves his BF so much.
Request granted living in another body ..
The GIRL met his BF again.. they were dating until the night his BF said ..
know what ? your actions seem familiar ..
” You’re like one of the GIRL I used to play with .. but she’s dead because I planned it.. “
Ouch ! :(

AN INCOMPLETE LOVESTORY OF A TEENAGER GUY

real love story ...

Ek ladka tha wo ek dusre college m addmission leta h... Wo college ek dusri city m hota h... addmission k kuch hi days baad wo ek ladki se milta h...wo ladki ko nai bata pata that k wo use like karne laga h. Us ladke ko baad m pata chalta h k wo ladki senior h us se... Fir ek din wo ladka aur ladki clg k ek function m part lete h,tab wo dono frnds ban jate h,wo phone numbers exchange karlete h,kai dino tak ladka use msg ya call nai krta ,wo sochta h k agar wo call ya msg karega toh ladki ko bura lagega,lekin wo ek din call karta h,usdin se wo roj raat ko baat krne lagte h.dheere dheere wo dono ek dusre ko apne pyaar k baare m bata dete h.fir wo dono sath sath rehte h clg m.wo bahut khush rehte h.ladka kabhi kabhi ladki k ghar jata h aur wo pura din sath spend karte h.ladke ko ek din ehsaas hota h k jo wo kar raha wo galat h,kyonki us ladke ki ek gf pehle se thi..wo koshish karta h k wo ladki ko apni purani gf k baare m bata de magar uski himat nai hoti, fir ek din achanak us ladke ki gf use uski purani gf k sath baithe dkh leti h ,us din use sach pata chalta h, wo ladka us ladki ko bahut pyaar karta h,magar wo purani gf ko nai chod sakta kyunki ,uski purani gf ladke ko bahut pyaar krti h,agar ladke ne use choda toh wo sucide karlegi.toh wo ladka new gf k sath breakup kardeta h.
Kuch dino baad ladka gusa m zehar khaleta h,magar pata nai uska kuch asar nai hota,wo bach jata h.aj bhi wo use bahut pyaar krta h,magar wo ladki ab use baat nai krti.wo ladki ye sochti h k wo ladka dhokebaaj h.
Plz frnds m us ladke ka frnd hu.ap is story ko itna share karo k ye us ladki tak pahuch jae.mera frnd aj bhi use bahut pyaar krta h.wo marjaega uske bina.Kuch dino baad ladka gusa m zehar khaleta h,magar pata nai uska kuch asar nai hota,wo bach jata h.aj bhi wo use bahut pyaar krta h,magar wo ladki ab use baat nai krti.wo ladki ye sochti h k wo ladka dhokebaaj h.Plz frnds m us ladke ka frnd hu.ap is story ko itna share karo k ye us ladki tak pahuch jae.mera frnd aj bhi use bahut pyaar krta h.wo marjaega uske bina.

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